Roller Coaster

I remember saying to the Dodie Londen group last month, that, "I've always believed that I can do whatever I put my mind to as long as I try,"
and I keep those words in my head as much as possible. Because, frankly, I put myself out there quite a bit. I never sit on my hands, never pass up an opportunity and I don't think I've ever declined to do something because I felt I wasn't qualified enough.

Politically speaking, I've always admired our State Senator. (different from U.S. Senator--our State Senator lives here and serves his term down in Phoenix) He was an air conditioning contractor who threw his hat in the City Council race several years ago, and won. After one term with our Council, he ran for the Senate and won. He's been recognized for his work keeping our taxes down, people know his name because of all the press he gets, and I've always thought to myself--"If he can do it, then I can too!"

I guess I assumed I'd have his support in my City Council bid. But then I spoke at the Republican Men's group this morning and my State Senator was there. And he kinda ripped on me. While I was trying to answer one of his questions he interrupted with some tirade and said very loudly, "You're not answering the question!"
I know I've got to get thicker skin for this stuff, but it was more than a little disheartening to have someone whom I've looked up to give me such a hard time in front of an audience. Someone who I've defended over the years to critics and honestly I've gotten into some very heated discussions with people over his policies. I must add--I got kudos from others in the meeting because they agreed with what I had to say on the issue. Hey, when I'm right I'm right. And I know I'm right. Most of the time....

It took me a while to get over the sting, and I think the home made cherry-chocolate brownie helped, too. After getting some supportive words from a friend (they said, "He's an ass!!!") I felt much better and I continued on with my day.

Next week I'm meeting with a realtor's group, because they're interviewing me to see if they'll support me in the Council race. I am really relying on this meeting next week to go well because the realtors basically run our town. Wish me luck!

Power. And Influence.

I feel pretty good today, because I've found that some of the things I've said and done lately have made a difference. Some people actually want to hear what I have to say, and they trust that I'm telling the truth!

Feels pretty darned good.